I’m grateful that I allow myself time to create because I love to.
I’m grateful for the large cup of coffee, oat milk, and honey that I make for myself every morning, not only because it tastes great, but because it keeps my bowel movements consistent.
I’m grateful for name-brand toilet paper because the bullshit I’m working with right now is extremely disappointing.
I’m grateful for my over-zealous neighbor that keeps talking about the obnoxious “Trumpers” when all I want to do is finish walking my dog… I know this may sound sarcastic, but honestly, I am. …
I connected with Arielle on the Girlboss platform last month about our love for dance; she, however, had a much different trajectory than I did with the sport, which you’ll learn about in our interview.
Arielle is currently double majoring in dance and health science at Chapman University and naturally, would like to pursue a career in both industries after college. I’d say she perfectly emulates the definition of a Girlboss. …
I’ve gone back and forth about the importance of identifying the relationship between the interviewer and the interviewee… is it important to know whether there’s a connection? Whether they’ve known each other for a while? And for how long?
Ultimately, after reading an Issa Rae interview between her and a close friend, I decided yes, it is important… also, I’m an over-sharer by nature, so from my stance, the more information, the better.
With that, let me lay it out for you… I met Ross around 2008 through an ex, who went to a school down in Phoenix which is where I moved after graduating from PHS. We’d see each other at parties, and around 2009 or 2010, he helped me and Leah find a house in Scottsdale; a house I was almost never at because I was busy being an idiot with a different ex. I saw him sporadically up until 2012, and then, solely through social media, liking each other’s posts and dropping a few words in the comment section about “how fun that trip looks” every couple months. …
“Can you please, please be quiet?” my voice trembled as my eyes tightened; I tried to pinch back the looming tears.
She wouldn’t listen; the barks only got louder and more frequent.
“Azey, SHUT UP!” I demanded with force, positive she’d sit up straight and get with the program.
“You’re gonna have to give something up,” my parents warned me three weeks prior.
“I know… I will,” I heard myself lie, knowing I wouldn’t.
With the pandemic, I was convinced I’d have this abundance of time I could keep pulling from like a Mary Poppins bag, but alas, I’m a human being that needs eight hours of sleep, has a full-time job, and tries to maintain a healthy relationship. …
It was roughly 2 am when I felt the shame swim through my body like I was slowly being poisoned; I could sense this devastating heat pulse through every fiber of my being as I wiped away the hot tears, my bottom lip quivering.
I let the street lights guide my pink and white Vans down Snapdragon Lane as I recalled the immense rush of pleasure I’d experienced on the trampoline just moments prior.
I was eleven and I’d had my first kiss with tongue.
Before then, I was obsessed with the idea of boys, fantasizing about Jonathan Taylor Thomas and Shia Labeouf, and I even became quite an impressive flirt, but for some reason, making any real “moves” felt like something I just wasn’t equipped for. …
“Every time I talk to my mom, she tells me I should really consider going to law school,” my new friend responded when I asked about her parents.
We were waiting for our drinks as we sat outside on the floppy orange stained cushions, still feeling the potent Arizona heat at 9pm.
She just booked a movie in LA, though, I thought.
I’d just shot a short fan film the other weekend and you would’ve thought I was starring in Martin Scorsese’s next film.
“Oh my gosh!!! I’m crying! I’m so proud of you, honey… I’m going to need your autograph immediately. You should call Grandma right now, she’ll be so proud of you!” my mom squealed emphatically before going off about something she saw on Facebook. …
Smarmo. It’s the name I gave the zit on my chin. Sometimes, when I’m really put off by a breakout, I’ll give it a name and welcome it into our home.
“Hello, Smarmo,” I’ll smile in the mirror with my chin tilted up to get a nice visual, “I’ll make sure to be a gracious host while you’re here, but this must be a very brief visit, okay?”
Matthew will greet it with usual pleasantries, and we’ll all go about our day.
But as much as I can joke about it, if I could pick one thing to change about myself, it would be to have perfect skin. Is that vain? Yeah, sure… maybe, but it’s also deeply honest. I can talk pretty openly about my mental health, my transgressions, or trauma that I’ve experienced, but my kryptonite… my Achilles heel, what makes me most vulnerable, is my skin. …
“Soo, I have to tell you something,” Leah’s luminous blonde hair fell down her forehead as she looked down; her face suddenly appeared four shades redder.
I pulled my hand in closer and upped the volume on my iPhone 11 that I’m convinced doesn’t take pictures with the same quality as my friend’s 10.
“You’re not pregnant again, are you?” I joked, to avoid the heartache I knew would ensue when she delivered her news. She looked distraught.
“We’re moving to Washington in like a month…” her voice cracked as she trudged through the rest, “Jer was offered a job and he’s going to take it.” …
A nice and heavy word to cause tension among the masses.
As I read Nate’s story (the featured writer for this Sunday), I appreciated his candor while recognizing his view was likely born out of serious reflection.
Even as I formulated the questions I would post on Instagram this week (yes, I spend entirely too much time on this Sunday evenings), I contemplated how I would take them in as a consumer.
What color skin were you born with?
I can hear the defense now, “I can’t help what color skin I was born with and I won’t feel shame about it.” …
“I don’t know if I can do this anymore,” I started with tears already formed, unable to look him in the eyes.
“What do you mean?” he pushed his brows together as if he didn’t see it coming.
Three months ago, I went to Sedona to cleanse my soul… or something. One of my friends passed away and I started really questioning everything in my life — my job, my friendships, my romantic relationship… I mean everything.
My point is, he knew he was on notice.
In some relationships, I suppose it’s “normal” for one or both partners to “let themselves go” but that’s not something I aspire to. I’ve seen enough documentaries to be POSITIVE that dairy, sugar, and a sedentary lifestyle isn’t for me. …